Forget all the nasty things I've said about the girl who blew me off, she doesn't really deserve it. As a matter of fact, I like her again. She is really nice, as proven by a similar friend. The thing that keeps me going now is to try to be nice as much as I can and for her to notice the effort. That, of course, is with all sincerity.
The only sucky thing now is that if they all found out I'm a great pretender. Pretending that I'm doing well.