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All Me Zombie

I failed her. Yet again. And now I am afeared all may be forever lost, for the second time for me now. Could not sleep. Thoughts flood my mind like a crashing wave, each sharper than the one previous. It hasn't been that long, but every minute already feels like a ten-tonne truck pounding on my membrane, waiting for solutions and answers, wanting regrets and misery to pass me by. There is no passing by with this. Not anymore. Miriam is gone. I think it's for good this time. I did something earlier today that I never would have done if it were otherwise. To open old wounds, not right now, I thought, but, I said to myself, to hell with it. It had been quite a long time, so I searched for Mioseon in Facebook hoping to peek at how her life had fared since we parted. At the beginning, I would have reckoned she would use the nom-de-plume that she previously used to totally distance herself from me, I suppose. A shame. Meeting Miriam had made me lose thoughts of her completel