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The watershed moment of the twilight of my years has just narrowed down into a epileptic fit of self-rationalisation; this was supposed to be my moment, a self-inflicted coup de grace, to go down and out and be completely naked to the eye. I can attest that Zakhar is an incredibly phenomenal gift that came to me. He is everything one could want or more. The more I see his face, the more I look in hindsight the failure that was me to my own kin. I was supposed to be their chosen one, until I was not. I was supposed to lift ourselves up by our bootstraps. And now, to what avail but be in the mercy of forever memories that live on so long as I live on. That one massively colossal failure that stretches to a generational flop, in unkind fashion, making me realise that that too could be me. My mother after all is me. I take her own name to myself. It is her legacy. Will it be the legacy I offer Zakhar in turn as well?